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October 26th, 2009



01:25 am - One day older
Today I turn 33. I had a whole joke planned how I was going to say it's my 21st birthday in hexidecimal, but I'm not feeling in a joking mood. On Sunday, Rannie Yoo (although she left the world Rannie Reid) finally lost her battle with cancer and left the world surrounded by loved ones, leaving the world a sadder place. I've been tossing around in my head what I was going to say in this post. I knew it was going to happen. As soon as we found out she had cancer and the type and stage of it, we knew it was coming, but it only really started to hit me hard this last week, when we knew the end was near.

I can say without a doubt that of all the people I'm not related by blood to, Rannie was most directly responsible for my life happening the way it did. If it were not for her, I most likely would not have been an officer of Cal Animage, which introduced me to a circle of friends that I still have to this day. Without her, I would not have staffed Fanimecon, nor Anime Expo, which between the two caused me to meet more people than I can count and affected me in immeasurable ways. But more than anything, Rannie was the first person I ever really got past an initial crush and got to the plateau of friendship without confusion that existed for years.

Just now I opened up the private diary file that I kept before I had this LiveJournal, which contained things which were for my eyes only. In the section about Rannie, it contained stories that I had long forgotten about the path from random person to friend, most of which are not appropriate to share. The one I can share is the story of how she and I met... maybe. We don't know for sure, but we were both fairly certain, but the first time I met Rannie was a Saturday morning in Bowles Hall in the Dungeon (a.k.a. the TV room) in our freshman year. I was there to watch cartoons, and turned the tv on before I realized there was a girl asleep on one of the couches. The TV woke her, and we ended up talking a bit while we watched TV. I never caught her name, but years later this came up in conversation, and Rannie says she had that same thing happen to her, and what are the odds of that happening twice?

This isn't very coherent. I don't suppose it could be. For the last week, whenever I stop thinking or doing anything, the space is filled with sadness and tears. Part of me should be scared that someone my age could die of cancer. But most of me is just devastated that I'll never see her again. Any person should be happy to have touched as many lives as she touched. The outpouring of sentiment from people I've never met just goes to show that she continued to have an influence on other people past the point where we were hanging out regularly. I feel sadness for the people whose lives she was destined to brighten in the future that will never have that chance.

I should stop before I ramble too much. Tomorrow is going to be hard -- I still haven't decided if I will tell my coworkers what I'm going through or if I should just push through it and keep my mind occupied. I will try to have a happy birthday. Being sad goes against what she lived for.


When life gives you the raspberry, give the raspberry right back.

See you next time around, Rannie.
mood: [mood icon] crushed

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August 18th, 2009



06:39 pm - #50
So at this moment, my mother and step-father are in Alaska on a cruise. As a part of this trip, my mom is making a special pilgrimage to Juneau, which will be the last of the 50 state capitals she's visited in her life, and the only one that my father never made it to.

My brother just made an offer on a house. I'm so proud.

As for myself, life continues on. As is the recent tradition, it's been six months so it's time for me to have another boss. I'm still doing the same job as the last year and a half, but now they did a little re-org.

I finally rectified a shortcoming in my life and I purchased Okami for the Wii. I'm probably about 2/3rds of the way through if my item list is any indication and it's everything people have said it was. I also picked up (i.e. downloaded via Steam) the Secret of Monkey Island remake. As I'm getting further in, things are seeming less and less familiar, I either played it once through way back when and replayed only the first bit, or I never finished it at all. Admitting this possibility probably loses me some nerd points.

The summer game drought is still going strong for me, with Shadow Complex coming out tomorrow and then an explosion in September. Hopefully I can finish Okami and Dragon Warrior V DS soon, and I'd like to finish my second playthrough of FF12 as well, seeing as how I bought a PS2 slim pretty much for the purpose of playing it again. (Although my library of PS2 games is full of reasons).

The WoW expansion news is starting to get exciting -- I bought the DirecTV PPV to watch Blizzcon. I just hope that it doesn't come out anywhere near FFXIV, because that would be a strain on my free time....

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July 22nd, 2009



02:10 pm - Another member of the family
So I haven't posted to the elljay in a while, but I have been making with the Twitter on an occasional basis. I've noticed my friends list has been dwindling in activity, as I guess short nugget sized 140 character updates are becoming more the norm than multi-paragraph posts. Another casualty of the ADD post-MTV generation, I suppose.

So, I had this whole chain of priorities of things that needed to be done in a very specific order that I've been working towards:

I wanted to finally have an app on my iPhone that I could search my collection of DVDs and books wherever I was so I could not accidentally buy the same thing twice, but Delicious Library 2 requires Leopard, and my Powerbook still has Tiger and instead of paying for Leopard I could just buy a new MacBook Pro...

But before I could buy a new MacBook Pro (which would also let me finally play with iPhone programming) I'd have to pay off some of my credit cards and get my finances stabilized and my house refinanced.

So I got my house refinanced. I paid off my credit cards. I got my brand new MacBook Pro (so shiny) and I find that both Delicious Library's iPhone app and Pocketpedia were both pulled from the app store because Amazon.com is being persnickety.

Yes, I have both of them downloaded already, but I'd either have to pay for DL 2.0 or a DVDPedia/Bookpedia etc. bundle in the hopes that the version of the iPhone app I have will possibly continue to work maybe and pray that nothing breaks that would have required an update. Both Delicious and Bruji have expressed that they are upset that Amazon did what they did and they wanted to support the iPhone. I hope that Amazon pulls its head out of its ass.

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June 14th, 2009


May 26th, 2009



03:46 pm - Okay, Mr. Dishwasher, I'm looking at you next
Whoever had the water heater in the "Which of Andy's appliances fails next" pool is a winner!

I was sick over the three-day weekend, which means I didn't even get to visit at Fanime, and ended up working from home today. Then Jenny came upstairs and said "I don't want to bother you, but there's a funny sound coming from the laundry room." After stepping into a pool of water, I quickly figured out what was wrong.

One quick shutoff valve turning and some not so quick mopping and drying of the linoleum later, and the room is mostly dry... although the fan is going to run overnight to make sure the nooks and crannies underneath the washer and dryer get dried off. This, people, is why it is building code to have a pan and drain underneath all new water heaters. This one was 20 years old and so it didn't have it.

So in retrospect, spending an hour in a damp room exerting myself may not have been the best thing to do when getting over a cold...
mood: damp

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April 17th, 2009



01:51 pm - Spring!

Forget the vernal equinox, spring officially starts when a bird hits my window repeatedly at 8:30 a.m.

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Current Location: US, California, Santa Clara, Santa Clara, Patrick Henry Dr, 2902
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April 14th, 2009



06:33 pm - Bite sized for your annoyance
Okay, after magaliiiii (oh dear, I started to type @magaliiiii there) pointed out, many of us are doing the "Here's the tweets I did in the last 24 hours" posts here in lieu of real content.

I started doing this because not many people were following me on Twitter. I suppose I can stop now, but then I'll have to actually post real posts here instead of just relying on a constant string of 140 character blurbs to fill my LJ history...

In all fairness, this is probably a good thing. Twitter is good for what it is, but there are many times I've felt very constrained by the 140 character limit. Crafting elegant turn of phrase is hard when that number is very steadily counting down to 0...

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01:30 pm - Tip of the iceberg
I've been watching my Dark Angel DVDs again in the background while I do other things, and I noticed quite a few actors that later went on to do the new Battlestar Galactica. I just kept seeing more and more, and I realized that the seven that I recognized were only the tip of the iceberg of actors that worked on both shows.

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12:03 am
Thoughts in 140 characters

  • 20:11 Going to get the cavity filled tomorrow morning. I hope I can properly breathe out of my nose this time. #
  • 20:22 I always see people wearing scrubs in El Pollo Loco. That's gotta be a good endorsement of the healthiness of the product. #
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April 10th, 2009



12:02 am
Thoughts in 140 characters

  • 15:23 So many new faces in teh tweeter. Now there's even more chance that tweets will disappear before I can read them. #
  • 20:42 I get to deal with dim sum during Passover on Saturday. This shall be interesting. #
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